so it's currently 12:46am on wednesday. daniel is fast asleep and im wide awake with a case of "i cant sleep....too much on my mind". ever since my "breakdown" a few weeks ago i've been trying to be an overall happier person. trying to be more positive, looking on the brighter side of things and not being so hard on myself.
but, let me tell you sometimes it's harder than it looks. i hate when i get in my moods where i feel "depressed" and crappy. it's hard for me to put in words what i feel sometimes, not just here on the blog, but to daniel too.
this last weekend, i mentioned i attend the RS broadcast with my mother-in-law, and it was so wonderful. president uchtdorf's talk really hit home. you can watch the whole talk here. {like for reals go listen to it, it will change your life! i swear}
As a child, when I would look at the little forget-me-nots, I sometimes felt a little like that flower—small and very insignificant. I wondered if I would be forgotten by my family or by my Heavenly Father.
Years later, I can look back on that young boy with tenderness and compassion. And I do know now I was never forgotten.
And I know something else. As an Apostle of our Master, Jesus Christ, I proclaim with all the certainty and conviction of my heart and soul—neither are you!
You are not forgotten.
Sisters, wherever you are, whatever the circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you, with an infinite love.
that quote from his talk brought a sense of peace over me, i am not forgotten even though i may feel it. i can easily feel alone or forgotten on a daily basis. after hearing this, i was reminded i am not forgotten, i have a heavenly father who loves me and wants me to understand my worth.
im not going to really grasp this, until i put forth more effort to really learn from this. i cant just expect it to come to me without any work right? {duh, eryka} i have been doing some serious thinking and i have come up with things i can do to help me better understand. i know i really want to make this change in my life, so i am going to try my hardest to stick to the things i have come up with. {they are kinda personal so im not gonna share}
i feel so blessed to have made some awesome friends through the blogging world, and i just ask for your love and support. please dont judge me, for being so open with my issues. just love me through it, {because we all know we have issues weather we can admit then or not right?, yes i am} that is all i ask to anyone who is reading. just love me through it. kthanksss loves!
have a wonderful hump day friends. xoxo
