be happy. be bright. be you.

if you have been a long time reader of abcde you know i have struggled with being happy with myself. i always have struggled with finding happiness with myself. of course i am happy with my family, marriage, friends and life in general. it's me i have not been happy with. the last few weeks i have really been focusing on being happy with my imperfections. daniel always tells me to take it easy on myself, i know i need too but, it's so hard. you ARE your worst critic. 

i have done my best to keep busy during my days. some of you know that i am home all day. i don't work. i have my shop but, thats it. since i am home all day i have ALOT of time to think which in some cases is not good. with all this time on my hands i spent way too much time thinking of things i needed to change and how i am not perfect. blah blah blah. 

recently i have started reading more, saying more meaniful prayers/really thank my heavenly father for all my many blessings, taking pride in cooking good meals, cleaning more {sure the hubby loves it!}, reading scriptures daily, and sometimes taking walks to clear my head. i have noticed a HUGE difference in my attitude. one thing i do want to start is working out again. when i was working out regularly i was in a better mood generally but, it's oh so hard to get motivated right?! so, anyways here's to being happy. being bright and being me!! 

sad for no reason.

the last two days i have been a weird funk. i was kinda mad at myself because i set all these new goals and i thought i was doing so good. until the other day, i just felt blah. honestly, it's no fun when i get in these moods. poor daniel, has to deal with cranky attitude. {sorry babes, i love you} i hate when i get like this. 


i know the only way for me to kick this feeling is, make the changes i need to. nobody but me can fix this. the only way for me to really be happy with myself the way i am, is to accept me for me and work on being the best me i can be. 


one thing i really want to work on this year is my self worth. i found this video of a talk from dieter f. uchtdorf. it pretty much was what i need to hear at this time in my life. 

i am promising myself right now, to REALLY work on becoming the best me i can be. i am not going to let the little things get me down. i want this so bad, i want to finally be happy with myself the way i am. i know i can do this. i also understand it wont be easy at all, but i need to stick to it and work hard! i can do this! I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS! 


i know you probably feel like i write alot of these posts about my struggle with being happy with me, but this is basically my journal since i am so bad at keeping a handwritten one. this is my way of getting everything out in words. something about writing it all out, that really can help a girl work through her issues. ya know?! 


thank you for listening//reading my thoughts. i have been thinking a lot about this blog, and i really want this to be REAL representation of me and my life. so, yeah this is the real me. im far from being perfect! 


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happy list: july

warm weather

sunglasses

diet coke

nieces

pintrest.com

crafts

little siblings in utah {live here now!}

tanlines

the temple

florence and the machine

making new blogger friends

new nail polish

naps with the hubs

when daniel comes home from work

looking at puppies online

baby stuff

fresh bread

daniel bruce clark

sometimes...

...i feel like complete crap, and dont want to do anything. {dont even feel bad.}

...you just need to reorganize your pantry. 

...the dinner you made sucks and is a total fail, so your sweet hubby takes you out. {i love you dan}

...looking at your wedding pictures makes you miss that day. {cant wait to get the rest from val} 
...i wake up to daniel getting outta bed at two am. i ask what he is doing, he replies: gonna get in the shower. i say what time is it? he says: 2. then i sleeply giggle and we go back to sleep. {pretty sure he was sleep walking. idk!}

...you look at cute spring dresses and dream of owning them all. {hahaha!}

...you feel very grateful for your smart, caring, loving, understanding, and hot husband. i fall head over heels in love with that man everyday. {true story}

...new sharpies make you very giddy, and want to color for an hour. {ask steph. ha!}

...you are annoyed about the littlest thing. {like, facebook not letting me change my name to eryka ann clark.}

...you sit in church and feel like all the babies are looking at you. {haha!}
...the only way to make you feel better, is to sit and veg out. 

yes i bought the 24 back with bonus sliver sharpie. <3