what's been going on....

Now, that things have slowed down and I have some time I want to write down what has been going on since Wens afternoon. This is mainly to update those who don't know all details and keep for our records of these babies. 

Wens afternoon I had a regular Dr appt with my regular Dr. My biggest worry earlier that day was the glucose test I had to take. We got to our appt-did the blood work and then went in for an ultrasound with our Dr. She usually starts by checking the babies real good but, this time for some reason she said she wanted to check my cervix and measure it since I was far enough along that it was time to start measuring it. 

She usually takes lots of pictures and talks to us a lot. This time she got really quiet. Made us kind of nervous at first {that would make any new parents nervous}. She then checked it herself and was able to stick her finger tip into my cervix and it is half the size its suppose to be. She said she probably could've stuck the whole finger but, didn't want to risk it just yet. She has me change back into my clothes and came back to discuss what was going on. 

She told me that my cervix was very thin and dilating. My heart started racing. She said she would like to admit me upstairs to Labor & Delivery. I started crying out of being utterly scared. I just held Dan's hand and up we went. 

They started placing heart monitors on both babies and me. Things are kind of blur at the start. I just remember that I started contracting quick. They put iv's in me and started pumping me with all kinds of medicine.  After a little bit the contractions slowed down and my Dad, Stepmom, little sister Oakley and Dan's Parents were let in. Dan, my Dad and my Father in Law gave me a Priesthood blessing {to read about the priesthood click here}. I felt an instant calming feeling take over me. I was still scared but, I knew with the help of the Doctors, Nurses and our Heavenly Father everything would be ok in time. 

After the blessing things slowed down and then I think randomly they started picking up again. The nurses called my Dr and she came back to the hospital. She arrived and said they may transfer me to another hospital that is better equipped to handle babies this early. I lost it. That scared me so bad. I felt totally out of control. 

Well, long story the did transfer me via helicopter to the University of Utah Hospital. Dan followed in our car with his mom. It was a quick trip about 5 min. By the time they got me into a room in Labor & Delivery. Dan, and his parents and my Dad were right behind me. 

Things kind of hectic at first. Lots of people in the room. Doctors and Nurses. Hooking me up to things and so on. That started a scary night of being constantly monitored. Dan and my Dad both stayed with me and my in laws went home to try to get some rest. While my Mom and Stepdad were on the way from CA {driving all night!}

It was a night of being constantly monitored. Not much sleep happening with all the Nurses coming in and out. My contractions were pretty close 1-5 min. After an hour or two of being on medicine they spaced out to 3-5 minutes. After a few more hours they had spaced out a lot. Around 6 am they came in and asked how I was doing since they noticed that they had slowed down a lot. I said I felt a lot better just, hungry! {I hadn't eaten since 2pm wens}. Around 8 am they took us in for an ultrasound and said that when we got back they were going to switch us to a new room. Ultrasound went great. When we got back to our room they said they were ready to take us to our new room and take out my iv's and take off the heart monitors. Such a relief. The new room we are in is amazing. Comfy bed, and such a nice break to have less people coming in and out. 

We have been in the new room since about 9am yesterday. They have come in every few hours to monitor the babies and me. We are all looking great. Still no new contractions or anything. I haven't dilated since Wens/I guess Thurs at midnight. Through this whole ordeal the babies have been great. Never been in any distress or anything. Just super active since they are still so little. Each only over a pound. We are praying they stay in a few more weeks!

This morning the head OB here came in and said during rounds that the other Ob's are please with the amazing progress and they may send us home this weekend. For me to be on bed rest at home. We are staying positive and are so grateful for all the prayers that have been sent our way. We truly feel blessed to have so many people thinking of us and these babies.

This had been such a scary and trying time in our lives. We have really relied on family, friends and most importantly our Heavenly Father. We know with faith and understanding things will be fine. 

I want to take a minute to say how lucky I am to have Dan by my side. He has been unbelievably strong even though I know he was just are terrified as me. He has been my rock. I feel so blessed to have an amazing husband to be with me through this journey. I love that man so much. He will be the best dad to these sweet babies. I love Daniel! 

There you have the story. I am sorry if it doesn't make sense I am still a little tired. Again we appreciate all the prayers and ask to keep them coming these next few weeks. Our goal is to keep them in at least 5 more weeks or longer would be best! Thank you so much we love each and everyone of you! 

xoxo



   

the little things

i have been struggling the last week or so with how to write in words what i am going through. i really have no idea what to say. i've even deleted two or three posts because i felt they didnt really say what i wanted too.

so, im just going to say...lately i have been trying to focus on the little things that make me happy. i am trying to let things go. im trying to not worry if otheres will judge me for feeling the way i do. im trying to stay strong. i am trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel and im trying to be patient. it is so hard. i guess that just means i am human. right?

i like to write about my struggles on this little blog of mines so, i can look back at all the things i have gone through. i know someday i can look back at this and say "i made it. i got through that trial". i really do believe we go through trials to learn more about us and to grow as a person. at times it may not seem that way, but i know it to be true. 

i am grateful for my heavenly father who loves me through all my struggles. im grateful for my loving family and friends and of course im grateful for my amazing husband. he really is my rock. he knows how to how to put me at ease when i am having a rough time and really not seeing the big picture. i dont know how he does it. i am really am the luckiest girl. 

and on a happy note: don't forget tomorrow is the last day to sign up for the fall book swap.