five things on thursday

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1. today, i am 28 weeks pregnant. holy moly, is right. i am starting to be very uncomfortable at times because they move so dang much. which is not a bad thing, trust me. i love it more than anything. on instagram i posted 2 videos of baby girl kicking and moving i have yet to get baby boy on video. it's so crazy to me that we can see them move now. feels like little aliens in my belly {not like, i know what that feels like. haha} i am feeling pretty grateful we have kept them in 3 weeks longer. let's pray they stay in another a few weeks! 

2. bed rest is starting to make me go crazy. i thought oh yeah, being in bed is going to be amazing. um, not. it's so hard to not want to do things around the house but, i literally can't. i know my limits now and it's hard to stick to them. i am not trying to complain, trust me. some days i am totally fine with this bed rest thing and others im not. i think anyone would agree. i know it's the best for the babies. now, i need to decide if going to catching fire this weekend is a good idea or not. i just don't know, it's not part of bed rest but, i would just be sitting in a theater right? not like im shopping at target {which i miss}. who knows what i will decide. probably wont' go but, who knows! 

3. can we talk about how fast november is going? thanksgiving is next week. then comes christmas! it's so crazy to me how fast the holidays go. this year i am itching to put up our tree. like, so bad. since dan is going to have to do the decorating {while i direct} we are waiting til after thanksgiving because, he's boring like that. haha just kidding babes! speaking of thanksgiving, i feel sad for it. it often gets overlooked by christmas. i am guilty of this. i did just say i wanted to decorate. haha. i do love thanksgiving!! 

4.  i won a giveaway from bonlook a few weeks ago and on monday i went to order my new glasses {i chose these ones}. well long story short, their site was having issues and not letting my payment go through. i had to pay $30..00 for my lenses because my prescription is so high. after several emails back and forth and a phone call. they couldn't find my payment. my bank had said it went through. so, bonlook is amazing and feels so bad for this headache of a problem that they are sending me the glasses for free! right?? so amazing. i am grateful for companies that have great customer service. i would have had no problem paying the $30.00 but, man it feels like good to know there is some nice people out there! {these are my own words, i am in no way getting anything for talking about their company. just wanted to share this story!}

5. during my days i have a lot time to think. this week i have been thinking about how blessed we really are. yeah, bed rest isn't ideal and i would rather be back to my old preggers self but, when i think about it. i am so thankful i am pregnant and soo thankful the babies are okay. i am extremely grateful for our doctor and her amazing care. she really is the best. i have a post planned on thanksgiving with other things i am grateful for but, i just wanted to share this now! 

what's been going on....

Now, that things have slowed down and I have some time I want to write down what has been going on since Wens afternoon. This is mainly to update those who don't know all details and keep for our records of these babies. 

Wens afternoon I had a regular Dr appt with my regular Dr. My biggest worry earlier that day was the glucose test I had to take. We got to our appt-did the blood work and then went in for an ultrasound with our Dr. She usually starts by checking the babies real good but, this time for some reason she said she wanted to check my cervix and measure it since I was far enough along that it was time to start measuring it. 

She usually takes lots of pictures and talks to us a lot. This time she got really quiet. Made us kind of nervous at first {that would make any new parents nervous}. She then checked it herself and was able to stick her finger tip into my cervix and it is half the size its suppose to be. She said she probably could've stuck the whole finger but, didn't want to risk it just yet. She has me change back into my clothes and came back to discuss what was going on. 

She told me that my cervix was very thin and dilating. My heart started racing. She said she would like to admit me upstairs to Labor & Delivery. I started crying out of being utterly scared. I just held Dan's hand and up we went. 

They started placing heart monitors on both babies and me. Things are kind of blur at the start. I just remember that I started contracting quick. They put iv's in me and started pumping me with all kinds of medicine.  After a little bit the contractions slowed down and my Dad, Stepmom, little sister Oakley and Dan's Parents were let in. Dan, my Dad and my Father in Law gave me a Priesthood blessing {to read about the priesthood click here}. I felt an instant calming feeling take over me. I was still scared but, I knew with the help of the Doctors, Nurses and our Heavenly Father everything would be ok in time. 

After the blessing things slowed down and then I think randomly they started picking up again. The nurses called my Dr and she came back to the hospital. She arrived and said they may transfer me to another hospital that is better equipped to handle babies this early. I lost it. That scared me so bad. I felt totally out of control. 

Well, long story the did transfer me via helicopter to the University of Utah Hospital. Dan followed in our car with his mom. It was a quick trip about 5 min. By the time they got me into a room in Labor & Delivery. Dan, and his parents and my Dad were right behind me. 

Things kind of hectic at first. Lots of people in the room. Doctors and Nurses. Hooking me up to things and so on. That started a scary night of being constantly monitored. Dan and my Dad both stayed with me and my in laws went home to try to get some rest. While my Mom and Stepdad were on the way from CA {driving all night!}

It was a night of being constantly monitored. Not much sleep happening with all the Nurses coming in and out. My contractions were pretty close 1-5 min. After an hour or two of being on medicine they spaced out to 3-5 minutes. After a few more hours they had spaced out a lot. Around 6 am they came in and asked how I was doing since they noticed that they had slowed down a lot. I said I felt a lot better just, hungry! {I hadn't eaten since 2pm wens}. Around 8 am they took us in for an ultrasound and said that when we got back they were going to switch us to a new room. Ultrasound went great. When we got back to our room they said they were ready to take us to our new room and take out my iv's and take off the heart monitors. Such a relief. The new room we are in is amazing. Comfy bed, and such a nice break to have less people coming in and out. 

We have been in the new room since about 9am yesterday. They have come in every few hours to monitor the babies and me. We are all looking great. Still no new contractions or anything. I haven't dilated since Wens/I guess Thurs at midnight. Through this whole ordeal the babies have been great. Never been in any distress or anything. Just super active since they are still so little. Each only over a pound. We are praying they stay in a few more weeks!

This morning the head OB here came in and said during rounds that the other Ob's are please with the amazing progress and they may send us home this weekend. For me to be on bed rest at home. We are staying positive and are so grateful for all the prayers that have been sent our way. We truly feel blessed to have so many people thinking of us and these babies.

This had been such a scary and trying time in our lives. We have really relied on family, friends and most importantly our Heavenly Father. We know with faith and understanding things will be fine. 

I want to take a minute to say how lucky I am to have Dan by my side. He has been unbelievably strong even though I know he was just are terrified as me. He has been my rock. I feel so blessed to have an amazing husband to be with me through this journey. I love that man so much. He will be the best dad to these sweet babies. I love Daniel! 

There you have the story. I am sorry if it doesn't make sense I am still a little tired. Again we appreciate all the prayers and ask to keep them coming these next few weeks. Our goal is to keep them in at least 5 more weeks or longer would be best! Thank you so much we love each and everyone of you! 

xoxo



   

happy list {august}

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so, i kind of forgot about the happy list last month. whoops! lets just pretend i didn't. this month instead of a list list i wanna write a few things i have been pondering that truly make me happy!

i feel like since we found out we were pregnant life has just been a whirlwind. since seeing that plus sign and then later seeing/hearing those two heartbeats things have never been the same.

being a mother is something i have longed for since i was little. i never knew how bad i wanted this until we really started trying in decemeber. before then it was just something that if it happened we would be excited and know it was meant to be. it wasn't something i let overcome my life until i saw my first neg sign. fast forward to about april. i woke up one day and said "if its going to happen it will, no need for me to let this take over my life". the week we found out in may i had finally come to the terms that i have no control over this. then bam, that plus sign.

okay the whole point of this....i feel like the whole reason heavenly father had us wait that few months was for us to truly be ready for this. to truly be ready to be parents. i think i wasn't ready at the other times in my life. i feel like i am ready for this.

trust me i am no where ready for the huge changes that are coming our way with two babies but, i feel that i am ready to try to be the best mother i can be.

we are so grateful and humbled that we get to to be parents to these twins. it something that we talk about on a daily basis. we can't help it! we are just so excited and so happy! we both feel so grateful and will never take this for granted. {well maybe we will be questioning our heavenly father when both babies are screaming and we are going 2 hours of sleep. haha}

happy august, my loves! 

some bits from the weekend + a thank you

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above are some photos from our easter weekend. it was a fun one with lots of time spent with my love bug. got new phones, baseball game, had a little cheat on the diet and had a hot dog {so worth it!}, beautiful easter sunday, and a good day in nursery {i love each and everyone of those precious children. they are so sweet!}

i really want to talk about the response to this post. 

i was overcome with tears of love. i appreciate those of you who opened up about your struggles too. it helped me really remember we are never alone. i love each and everyone of you. thank you so much for all the love and support you have shown us. 

blogging always has a funny way of showing me how grateful i really am for this part of my life. i am so thankful for all my blogging friends. you guys, sure know how to make a girl feel loved. i truly believe that you all have been placed in my life for a reason and i am so glad you have been. again, thank you for all the texts, emails, comments, and messages. i love you all! && that is not an april fools joke!

xoxo

giving thanks

+my loving family without them i wouldn't be complete
+my heavenly father 
+eyes that allow me to see the beauty around me
+good friends who are an example to me 
+a husband who is my rock and is always there for me
+you readers of this blog 
+grandparents who are an example to me of how a marriage should be
+the roof over my head 
+in-laws who showed me love from day one
+laughter 
+the power of prayer 
+good food
+ unconditional love 
+eternal families 

there are just a few things i am thankful for. i could go on and on and on. but ,i wont! so, what are you thankful for this beautiful thanksgiving?! share a few things below in a comment or leave the link to your thanksgiving posts. cant wait to read them! 

we are still on vaca but, i will read and respond to comments as soon as i can! happy thanksgiving, loves! ps. did you like tuesday and wednesdays guests posts?

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